Changing Ends...

And Life takes a turn.. for the better?!.. I surely do hope so!!!... For the worse?!... Sorry I'm not scared!!


A month back I was dejected still seemingly optimistic.. Angry stilll calm on the surface.... Scared still not willing to let others know... Just for the sake of myself!!!... I did not want to see all those emotions on other people's faces when they looked back at me!... It still felt good when I could wipe my friends' tears when I was sobbing within, when even if I was confused about life, I could make it a little more sense for someone, when even though I was scared inside, I still could see the hope on my parents' faces when they looked at me!

Frankly, life has not changed drastically since then. So I ponder what is difference this time round.. And I knw the answer.. My attitude!.. towards life in general. I want to believe that life would give me my share of joy, my share of peace!..

Maybe life is not the party that we were expecting, but in the mean time, we're here and we can still dance...:-) :-) 

So I promised myself that I won't give up... I won't give in... I won't break.. When I'll smile, I'll mean it!.. Because my one smile lights up the faces of those who love me... for ME!! My family, my friends - MY WORLD. Wouldn't it be verry selfish of me that to run away from my life, I take them on my nightmarish journey too.. The devils inside me I have to fight!.. Better to have a smile on my face when I kill them than a scowl!

Much too often we take for granted those who are the closest to us, the ones who give without hesitation, we fail to show them how much they mean to us!!!..

 Now it's a new beginning for me!.. One full of hope, joy, optimism, love. Nothing has changed... apart from the way I look at things now!.. I do get angry.. But I get over it quickly... I do get sad.. But I don't let myself be like that for long.. I do get impatient.. But then I laugh it off as my special qualities!!!... Life isn't all that Haa Haa Hee Hee but then again ...I am Happy... When I smile, I know I'm content.. And even if life doesn't turn out to be the way I might want it, It's okie.. Atleast I'll be able to live it with a light heart!

I have always enjoyed meeting new people, sharing thoughts, understanding them, what makes some people similar, what makes them different... how some people have an easy view of life while some have a hardened opinion thanks to Life's trials!.. But I now know that hardship doesn't always mean misery, it also means strength!... So now when I'm meeting a lot of new people, getting to know them, I once more enjoy it whole-heartedly. 

Besides everything ofcourse, I'm back to writing.. whatever little.. whatever arbit I manage to write.. I do write.. and when afterwards I read it, most of the times I just laugh my head off.. I can really be pretty melodramatic at times :D And I devote time to reading.. something which I've intended for a long times now but haven't done in a while... It's great to BE BACK!

So for now, it's back to MiCoffee, MiFamily,MiFriendz,MiCricket,MiFood and MiLife :).. and hey It's not even THAT bad!! :P